Joining the Marine Corps

[Anonymous]

I am 20 years old and have earned some college credits. I have been thinking about joining the Marines for quite some time. (feel kinda old to be starting though) It acually began with total infatuation and then I started to think that maybe this is what is missing from my life. I have been talking to a recruiter since September. I was signed up to go to MEPS twice but chickened out both times.( I felt pressured into signing that day in order to recieve the MOS I was looking at) I did however take my asvab with complete disappointment of my score,78; I didn't study and I was so nervous I rushed throught the whole thing. I feel like there is a mojor void in my life. I don't have self confidence or pride. I have never really excersized. I guess my major dilemas are being scared of failure because I don't even know what I am capable of and also making a decision that ultimately affects the rest of my life.( I eventually want to get married and have children) I have heard so much negative comments on women in the Marines. I have two friends that are in the Marines but they are horrible examples.(My ex boyfriend always talks about me being too short and gonna get raped and blah blah not to mention he is an 8year cpl) My family thinks I am crazy, my dad totaly hates the idea, and my friends don't want me to leave. Please help me to make the right decision. I would love to email anyone who is willing to talk.
My email address is: kdb_babygirl@hotmail.com